AMMI KI YAD MEIN!

10th February comes every year to refresh memories of Ammi,s sudden demise. The initial deep pain has over the years changed into a dull thud, embedded deep inside the heart….but memories of her charismatic personality, strong values and unending care are as fresh as ever! Rest in peace Ammi, you and your love lives on in our hearts. May Allah grant you the highest rank in Jannah! Ameen

Today I feel like reposting the nazm I wrote for you immediately after you left this mortal world. The pain, anguish and helplessness of those days have subsided over the years, but I miss you Ammi  and I love you.. more than I can express in words!

  Ae Maan teri khaamosh si hastee mere lye

Kisi neimat, kisi daulat se nahin thee kum!

Tere seene se jo uthti thi mumta ki mehak

Dil ke zakhmon ko wo marhum se nahin thi kum

Kya hua khamosh agar tu rehti thi

Mere dukhon ka bojh tha tere dil par

Tu samajhti thi meri zeest hai kitni mushkil

Dard mera har ik sehti thi Tu apne dil par

Mere har dukh ko Tu yun mehsoos kya karti thi

Dur hoke bhi Tu dur nahin thi mujh se

Bezubani ki zuban meri samajhti thee Tu yun

Janti thi wo jo kabhi mein ne kaha naa tujh se

Duryan tujh mein aur mujh mein bohat thein lekin

Muztarib mein thi yahan toTu thi bechain wahan

Theis lagti thi idhar… tees uthti thi udhar

Zakhm lagta tha yahan…dard hota tha wahan!

Mein ne socha tha ke Tu jab bhi mileigi mujh ko

Hue jo mujh pe sitam ye mein bataungi tujhe

Tere mumta bhare seene mein chupa ke chehra

Khub roungi mein… aur khub rulaungi tujhe

Apne narm se hathon se Tu pocheigi mere ansoo

Yun bare pyar se deigi Tu tasalli mujh ko

Naa ro beti meri.. abhi to mein zinda hun

Apne mamta bhare anchal mein samo leigi mujh ko

Lekin aisa na hua Tu tou mujhe chor gayi

Dhup ghum ki hai kari aur tera saaya bhi nahin!

Tere jaane se yun zakhm mere cheekh uthe

Unki dukhan jo kare kum, koi marham hi nahin!

Ghum ki rahon mein koi aur sahara to na tha

Tere milne ki umeed hi kaafi thee mujhe

Zindagi pehle bhi mujh ko koi asaan na thi

Tu nahin to ye zeest aur bhi mushkil hai mujhe!

Mere ashkon ko hai haajat tere daman ki

Dil ke zakhmon ko hai mamta ke marham ki talab

Yun museebat mein mujhe tanha Tu kyun chor gayi?

Kuch to batlaa mujhe yun mun pher ke jane ka sabab!

Dard seh kar mujhe hansna tha sikhaya Tu ne

Har qadam par meri himmat ko barhaya Tu ne

Sar utha ke mujhe jeena to sikaahya Tu ne

BIN TERE KAISE JYUN? YE NAA BATAAYA TU NE!!!

18 thoughts on “AMMI KI YAD MEIN!

    • Yes, Hina I know you can relate to this one! Some pains just refuse to subside… bazaahir humein lagta hai ke dukh kum ho gaya hai, lekin koi bhee zaalim lamha sab zakhm taaza kar deta hai!

  1. It is heart-touching and heartrending at the same time. Surely, there is no substitute for a mother. But we must remember that Allah is always there by our side… Whose Love is more than seventy mothers combined.

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